It rained today. It poured, and I felt like I was drowning. The rain was too much of a parallel to my own life today. Every time it seemed to let up it would begin again, but harder, like it was trying to suffocate you and wash you away. I wished it would stop. Having [...]

I haven’t prayed in months

I haven't prayed in months. Okay that is not entirely true, I say bedtime prayers with my children, I pray for people that ask me to pray for them, and I have tearfully pleaded for the lives of other children at the clinic. But I haven't prayed for my son. I know a few people that [...]


Today was hard. I hated every minute of this morning! People are always saying how strong we are and it makes me want to roll my eyes and laugh. When your child has cancer you don't have an option. You can't curl up in a ball and cry because it's too hard even though that [...]

Stop saying that.

"God will never give you more than you can handle."  "You're such a strong person." "Keep your chin up and everything will work out." In the past 2 weeks my husband and I have been told these things repeatedly. Not only is the phrase, "God will never give you more than you can handle", not [...]